I know I say it a lot, but I love you. Tonight as I am sitting here reflecting on the last couple of months, I am just amazed. God has been so good to both of us. He has chosen to allow us to be together for such an amazing experience. I can't think of another person on this earth that I would like to share this time in my life with other than you.
You are unlike anyone I have ever known before. You understand me in a way that no one else does. You get it, I mean really get it, when I talk about what i am experiencing here. Whether it be overwhelming sadness or anger or happiness, you understand what I am going through because I believe you have felt it yourself at one time or another. You understand what I mean when i am talking about Texas not feeling like my home anymore. You understand how I feel about these kids, and how easily they capture a piece of your heart and remain there for the rest of their lives. You understand my slightly random thought process and even kind of get my creativity. You could see the passion in my heart when I was certain it was long gone and destroyed because of the strains of being a teacher in the United States. You see greater things in myself that I can even comprehend. How do I know these things? Because I listen to what you say to me and I watch your face when you say it.
I see so many things in you. You are the most caring person I have ever met. I mean it. I can see it in your eyes when you are talking with the kids. I can see it on your face when one of them comes over to greet you. I can see it in your eyes when we are talking or I am telling you about some crazy dream I have had or some outrageous idea i have come up with. I can hear it in your words when you are calmly reassuring me that I am safe and protected and loved. I can feel it radiating from you when you are close to me. You are a gifted teacher. Sometimes I don't think you realize what a great teacher you are. Don't let the test scores make you believe that you aren't doing a great job. You are doing a great job. Test scores are just a one dimensional look at what a child is capable of doing. Interacting with them shows that they are learning from you and what you are teaching. It is more important to make an impact on their lives in an eternal sense rather than just worrying about their earthly education. You are going to be an amazing husband and father one day. How do I know this? I told you, I see these things in you. It doesn't escape my attention the ways that you interact with the children. I can see how much you love and care for them and I know that one day whether the children are yours biologically or they are adopted or whatever, those children will be loved and cared for in ways that they can't even comprehend at this point. I know that you are going to be an amazing husband one day. How? Well for starters, let's talk about how you go out of your way to make sure that i am taken care of, well taken care of. You make sure that i know that I am safe and protected. You make sure that I know that I am loved. That's just the short list. You know that there is so much more to it than just these few things I have listed here.
You make me feel like the most special woman on the planet. I am truly blessed by having you in my life. For the first time, in a long time, I feel as though I matter to someone enough for them to take the time to invest in a relationship with me. I feel like this must be a dream, but then pinch myself and realize that this is reality. For the first time, reality is finally better than my dreams. You are the reason this is true.
I love you and can't wait to see where this journey lead us.
Love with all my heart,
Melody
